To the one I love?
Inspiration?
What is it? Who do we consider to be such a person? Well for me, an inspiration is something or, in my case, someone, which sight alone can suffice. Even a glance is enough to make me move and do things I cannot imagine... in a good way, of course.
Yes, my brothers and sisters, I am once again in awe!
Just the thought of her in my mind is enough to empower me in times of hardship. In the midst of difficulties, her voice, ringing in my ears, grants me clear concentration. In my busy schedule and hyper-active lifestyle, just a vision of her face stops time. The anticipation of seeing her once more makes the days seem longer and unbearable. Yet, when I'm with her, I'm stuck up...
Everytime I see her approaching, I tremble in fear. Everytime I see her smile, I smile along for no reason at all. Everytime I hear her voice, I get into a trance. And everytime she does what she does best, I just stare blankly into nothing out of sheer awe and brilliance.
She is just too divine; yes, the perfect word for it!
I just cannot fathom why I somehow submit into the mercy of people granted by God the talent I really longed for yet impossible for me to attain.
This cannot be love, I'm sure enough to bet my life. Yes, the signs are there: the thoughts of the two of us together, the anxiety of waiting when to get a glance of her again, the longing of hearing her voice, the wish of making the moment in her presence last forever and the sleepless nights thinking of her. But the final ingredient is not present - the willingness to do anything and everything for her.
You can say that the fear of rejection is the factor affecting the absence of this but in my case, it does not apply. Why, you ask? I know no fear and expressing my feelings openly is my trademark! (di ba batchmates! :D)
But then you ask, who the hell are you fooling? And I answer this question - believe in what you want! The truth, today, is no longer important! People only believe what looks, sounds and what they think is good so even if the truth is in front of them, they refuse to accept it for it is not good enough for them. God alone knows what is in my heart!
Believe in what you want, mock me for not admitting that I am in love once again. Brand me a liar for not telling the "beautiful truth" about my condition, I don't care!
But this I tell you, I will remain in awe of her! I will continue to hope in being in her presence. I will continue to long for her sweet voice. I will continue to daydream about her simple yet gorgeous face. And I will not stop anxiously waiting for the time when I will see her again! I will never get tired of helplessly hoping in seeing her smile, even if it's not for me or not caused by me.
Why, again you ask? I am happier hoping and remaining inspired by the unattainable than loving and being loved.
And once again, I quote the downfall of the greatest metal band; "She is everyting to me... The song that no one sings - the unattainable. She's a myth that I have to believe in and all I need to make it real is one more reason. I dont know what to do... She makes me sad..."
So I said it, so I shall stand my ground!
Peace, my brothers and sisters!
What is it? Who do we consider to be such a person? Well for me, an inspiration is something or, in my case, someone, which sight alone can suffice. Even a glance is enough to make me move and do things I cannot imagine... in a good way, of course.
Yes, my brothers and sisters, I am once again in awe!
Just the thought of her in my mind is enough to empower me in times of hardship. In the midst of difficulties, her voice, ringing in my ears, grants me clear concentration. In my busy schedule and hyper-active lifestyle, just a vision of her face stops time. The anticipation of seeing her once more makes the days seem longer and unbearable. Yet, when I'm with her, I'm stuck up...
Everytime I see her approaching, I tremble in fear. Everytime I see her smile, I smile along for no reason at all. Everytime I hear her voice, I get into a trance. And everytime she does what she does best, I just stare blankly into nothing out of sheer awe and brilliance.
She is just too divine; yes, the perfect word for it!
I just cannot fathom why I somehow submit into the mercy of people granted by God the talent I really longed for yet impossible for me to attain.
This cannot be love, I'm sure enough to bet my life. Yes, the signs are there: the thoughts of the two of us together, the anxiety of waiting when to get a glance of her again, the longing of hearing her voice, the wish of making the moment in her presence last forever and the sleepless nights thinking of her. But the final ingredient is not present - the willingness to do anything and everything for her.
You can say that the fear of rejection is the factor affecting the absence of this but in my case, it does not apply. Why, you ask? I know no fear and expressing my feelings openly is my trademark! (di ba batchmates! :D)
But then you ask, who the hell are you fooling? And I answer this question - believe in what you want! The truth, today, is no longer important! People only believe what looks, sounds and what they think is good so even if the truth is in front of them, they refuse to accept it for it is not good enough for them. God alone knows what is in my heart!
Believe in what you want, mock me for not admitting that I am in love once again. Brand me a liar for not telling the "beautiful truth" about my condition, I don't care!
But this I tell you, I will remain in awe of her! I will continue to hope in being in her presence. I will continue to long for her sweet voice. I will continue to daydream about her simple yet gorgeous face. And I will not stop anxiously waiting for the time when I will see her again! I will never get tired of helplessly hoping in seeing her smile, even if it's not for me or not caused by me.
Why, again you ask? I am happier hoping and remaining inspired by the unattainable than loving and being loved.
And once again, I quote the downfall of the greatest metal band; "She is everyting to me... The song that no one sings - the unattainable. She's a myth that I have to believe in and all I need to make it real is one more reason. I dont know what to do... She makes me sad..."
So I said it, so I shall stand my ground!
Peace, my brothers and sisters!
fluxkake! @ 2:21 PM
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I believe you, man!
That cannot be love. I understand that you have strong feelings for her and it happens all the time. It comes to that point when she is your "inspiration" because the room (and you, for that matter) lightens up whenever she's around.
Well, not love? Yah. You see, if it is love, it must be encompassing three corners: passion, intimacy, and commitment. Let's just say you have the first and you're willing to have the last. But until you're not close friends and sharing with each other your problems and conversing comfortably, you're still not intimate.
Intimacy (defined in psychology as the level of closeness of two people) is the one that you need to really say you're in love with her. That's my bet.
Mwahs.
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